If anyone asks how I am, I’ll say:
- “I’m great!”
- “Just living.”(not lying about this)
I’m lying. Everything is NOT okay.
I lie so I won’t get asked whats wrong because if I talk about him, it’ll drag me more down. If anything is wrong with me, it most likely (86% of the time) about him. I just try to avoid the subject.
I just hate myself so much right now. I really just want to get him out of my head.